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edward cullen
November 2009 
A smile on my heart, a laugh on my lips
Posted on Jan 1st, 2009
by 
Jane
Jane
So humor me: Now, after at last having successfully made it into my 20's, I have joined the swooning hordes of 12-year-old girls and succumbed to the romantic phenomenon that is Edward Cullen.
It's downright pathetic.
I figured I would read the Twilight books, after all, as a well-versed reader with an interest in pop-culture movements I felt I was somewhat obligated to. However, I did not expect them to be anywhere near as captivating or addicting as they appear to be to the rest of the world.
It turns out, I was wrong. They're sort of like heroin. Not that I consider myself a drug-user by any means, but, let's be honest: I've read the first three books in the last 24 hours, and will most likely be finished with the fourth one by the end of tomorrow. Now I know that I read ridiculously fast (each volume took me roughly 3.5 hours to finish) and for that matter, the saga doesn't exactly require an advanced reading level, but seriously? It's not Harry Potter, for godsake. It really is rather irrational. What is it that is so compelling about these damn books?
Ok, so I suppose that question doesn't need to be asked. Its the love story, duh. That love between Edward and Bella that leaves every normal human female - regardless of whether they are in a happy relationship or not - craving a passion that overcomes all barriers, no matter how high. I mean, let's be real: I'm pretty darn sure I've been in love before, and for that matter I have an absolutely incredible boyfriend who makes me ridiculously happy, but nonetheless, the more I read about these star-crossed lovers, the more I find myself thinking Well, damn. Am I ever going to find something like that?
Now keep in mind, I am not looking for a vampire. Definitely not. I enjoy my own mortality, thankyou very much.
But anyway, as I kept on reading, I had a few revalations about this wierd love thing. First, let's face it, ithe whole passion bit gets a little overexaggerated in books. I'm not saying passion shouldn't or doesn't have to be there in a romantic relationship, hell yes it does, but its not going to be there every minute of every day. Its just not. But as I started to think about my own relationship in comparison to Bella & Edward (come on, who doesn't?) I realized that some points weren't so far off.
Sacrifice, for one. Bella's humanity is the obvious, but its clear, especially as we delve deeper into their relationship, that there are a great number of give and takes that must be made, compromises and so on. I think that's a hard truth, and for that matter a great indicator of the strength of a relationship. I guess that's why I saw a definitive turning point in my own relationship when Wes offered to move so that we could stay together without me having to quit/lose my job. Truthfully, I wasn't expecting it at all and the action substantially altered the way I think about him and our relationship.
Another thing that hit me really hard was the way Bella felt when Edward was gone. Now, I don't exactly go into hibernation when he isn't around, but recently, having spent the first extended period of time away from each other since the start of our relationship, I realized how much I honestly miss Wes. Its extremely wierd, considering that what led me to breaking up with my last boyfriend (whom I had essentially agreed to marry, crazy as that may be) was the revelation I had after leaving for college that I really didn't, well, miss him at all. So the feeling is pretty bizarre and foreign to me.
I'm not sure exactly where I'm going with this, except to say that after all my thoughts about what I was missing out on in not dating a vampire, I suddenly became extremely thankful for what I do have. To say that I'm very content with him doesn't quite do it justice, I don't think. I have no idea how long this crazy boy is going to be in my life. But for now at least, Bella can keep Edward. I'm quite happy with what I've got.
shalom,
jane
It's downright pathetic.
I figured I would read the Twilight books, after all, as a well-versed reader with an interest in pop-culture movements I felt I was somewhat obligated to. However, I did not expect them to be anywhere near as captivating or addicting as they appear to be to the rest of the world.
It turns out, I was wrong. They're sort of like heroin. Not that I consider myself a drug-user by any means, but, let's be honest: I've read the first three books in the last 24 hours, and will most likely be finished with the fourth one by the end of tomorrow. Now I know that I read ridiculously fast (each volume took me roughly 3.5 hours to finish) and for that matter, the saga doesn't exactly require an advanced reading level, but seriously? It's not Harry Potter, for godsake. It really is rather irrational. What is it that is so compelling about these damn books?
Ok, so I suppose that question doesn't need to be asked. Its the love story, duh. That love between Edward and Bella that leaves every normal human female - regardless of whether they are in a happy relationship or not - craving a passion that overcomes all barriers, no matter how high. I mean, let's be real: I'm pretty darn sure I've been in love before, and for that matter I have an absolutely incredible boyfriend who makes me ridiculously happy, but nonetheless, the more I read about these star-crossed lovers, the more I find myself thinking Well, damn. Am I ever going to find something like that?
Now keep in mind, I am not looking for a vampire. Definitely not. I enjoy my own mortality, thankyou very much.
But anyway, as I kept on reading, I had a few revalations about this wierd love thing. First, let's face it, ithe whole passion bit gets a little overexaggerated in books. I'm not saying passion shouldn't or doesn't have to be there in a romantic relationship, hell yes it does, but its not going to be there every minute of every day. Its just not. But as I started to think about my own relationship in comparison to Bella & Edward (come on, who doesn't?) I realized that some points weren't so far off.
Sacrifice, for one. Bella's humanity is the obvious, but its clear, especially as we delve deeper into their relationship, that there are a great number of give and takes that must be made, compromises and so on. I think that's a hard truth, and for that matter a great indicator of the strength of a relationship. I guess that's why I saw a definitive turning point in my own relationship when Wes offered to move so that we could stay together without me having to quit/lose my job. Truthfully, I wasn't expecting it at all and the action substantially altered the way I think about him and our relationship.
Another thing that hit me really hard was the way Bella felt when Edward was gone. Now, I don't exactly go into hibernation when he isn't around, but recently, having spent the first extended period of time away from each other since the start of our relationship, I realized how much I honestly miss Wes. Its extremely wierd, considering that what led me to breaking up with my last boyfriend (whom I had essentially agreed to marry, crazy as that may be) was the revelation I had after leaving for college that I really didn't, well, miss him at all. So the feeling is pretty bizarre and foreign to me.
I'm not sure exactly where I'm going with this, except to say that after all my thoughts about what I was missing out on in not dating a vampire, I suddenly became extremely thankful for what I do have. To say that I'm very content with him doesn't quite do it justice, I don't think. I have no idea how long this crazy boy is going to be in my life. But for now at least, Bella can keep Edward. I'm quite happy with what I've got.
shalom,
jane
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