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August 2009 
A reminder to me that all things can become new again.....
Posted on Apr 8th, 2009
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Jane
Jane
What's the most beautiful thing you've seen this week?
New green.
last week was rough, and that's putting it mildly. maybe it was that i just really needed a vacation, maybe it was that i haven't had an emotional breakdown in over a year, maybe it was time for my procrastination to catch up to me - who knows, i don't, and i don't care. it doesn't matter now. so, after not sleeping for several days, skipping a test, watching my computer swallow a finished paper whole, and dropping a class, i went home. i'd planned the trip in advance on a whim, i had no idea how desperately it would actually be needed.
i wanted to go home in april for a number of reasons, a big one being that i could get my fix of spring. the thing i really miss living in miami is seasons, so now i try to go home at least four times a year to get a bit of all of them. spring is really important to me, to my health and well being. it is a reminder to me of the natural order of rebirth. to me there is nothing more beautiful than the sight of new green, when everything is just beginning to bloom and emerge from winter's gray. i love it. i need it. and i got it this weekend.
i spent friday afternoon in the woods. the weather and time of year was perfect - too early for the bugs of summer, too late to get cold fording streams. Emerson said "In the woods, we return to reason and faith." its so true. we don't really have woods here in miami, and i think that's what allows my life to become so unreasonable sometimes. i need the woods. i need seasons. i love my school, but there's no way i can spend more than four years in this city. it messes with your head.
maybe my life has been becoming too old, to repetitive lately. maybe i needed to be shocked out of it, thrown into something new. beyond the structure of what i "have" to do, how i "have" to take so many classes and "have" to cram so much into the time that i have and "have" to apply to all the prestigious hoo-ha. well, maybe that isn't me, and maybe i needed to be reminded of it. the woods have a way of doing that. maybe that isn't who i am, or who i'm going to be. perhaps i needed to start over. become new again.
recrudesence. rawness. newness. new green. new life.
peace,
jane
New green.
last week was rough, and that's putting it mildly. maybe it was that i just really needed a vacation, maybe it was that i haven't had an emotional breakdown in over a year, maybe it was time for my procrastination to catch up to me - who knows, i don't, and i don't care. it doesn't matter now. so, after not sleeping for several days, skipping a test, watching my computer swallow a finished paper whole, and dropping a class, i went home. i'd planned the trip in advance on a whim, i had no idea how desperately it would actually be needed.
i wanted to go home in april for a number of reasons, a big one being that i could get my fix of spring. the thing i really miss living in miami is seasons, so now i try to go home at least four times a year to get a bit of all of them. spring is really important to me, to my health and well being. it is a reminder to me of the natural order of rebirth. to me there is nothing more beautiful than the sight of new green, when everything is just beginning to bloom and emerge from winter's gray. i love it. i need it. and i got it this weekend.
i spent friday afternoon in the woods. the weather and time of year was perfect - too early for the bugs of summer, too late to get cold fording streams. Emerson said "In the woods, we return to reason and faith." its so true. we don't really have woods here in miami, and i think that's what allows my life to become so unreasonable sometimes. i need the woods. i need seasons. i love my school, but there's no way i can spend more than four years in this city. it messes with your head.
maybe my life has been becoming too old, to repetitive lately. maybe i needed to be shocked out of it, thrown into something new. beyond the structure of what i "have" to do, how i "have" to take so many classes and "have" to cram so much into the time that i have and "have" to apply to all the prestigious hoo-ha. well, maybe that isn't me, and maybe i needed to be reminded of it. the woods have a way of doing that. maybe that isn't who i am, or who i'm going to be. perhaps i needed to start over. become new again.
recrudesence. rawness. newness. new green. new life.
peace,
jane
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